I'm starting to freak out.
I'm still on massive quantities of vicodin. I have shit loads of homework to do and also to catch up on. I'm working almost fifty hours this week. My friends and family are giving me guilt trips. I have dry sockets and car brakes I need to fix. And class and housework on top of all of that. If I get through the next month or so with out flipping a lid... I'm going to have to start thinking of how things will have to be different next semester.
Mornings at my job I make the best money, in fact I've worked really hard to earn the morning spot, so I can't just give that up. It means my rent and bills get paid easily and I'm privlaged to do what I want with the rest. I refuse to move home, there's no room unless I want to share the cat box.
Okay so that's settled. Job # 1, not going anywhere.
Job # 2, I love. I'm down to one or two days a week there and I'm not giving that up either.
School, I refuse to go part-time. I want to get out of here very badly, and part-time is certainly not the way to do it. I just continue to tell myself I need to be more disciplined and every week I think that's going to be the week I do it. But I never do. I don't know if this is something that has to be learned over time, or if there's some big secret that I'm missing out on. I continuously set myself up to be a slacker.
I just want to go back to bed, but its time to put some coffee on and get in the shower. Story of our lives. Reguardless of my late pissy and pathetic attitude towards life, TODAY IS GOING TO BE A GREAT DAY!
Welcome to life I guess? It seems to be I ALWAYS have a busy schedule. I can't wait until summer! Although my summer seems busy too :(
ReplyDeleteI often feel the same way and feel overwhelmed by everything.
ReplyDeleteWhat works for me? Take a few moments each day to just sit and breathe. Focus on the tasks you have to accomplish just for that day and figure out how you're going to complete them. Long term goals are obviously great and very needed, but sometimes looking at just each day makes things not seem so overwhelming.